Inside this box I have structure and routine.

I coast through the motions never questioning.

As I walk the tight rope of expectations preordained for me.

When they were sick
You took care of them
You helped them breath better
When they were tired you wrapped them up and gave them there pacifier.

What do you do
when the only one you have is you?
how do you live
when you cant stand yourself

i want to be someone differant
want to be someone distant
praying to God

They play with your mind.
They pull at your heart.
They will no longer be around.
They will forever be apart.
No more messing with your mind.
Trust in Family only.
Friends can grow apart.

happy song,
come on.
make yourself spawn
inside my brain.
let me play you
'til i feel pain.
because i'm assuming
my fingers and forearms will hurt.
and these thoughts that are a-blooming

-- "i miss streetlights. they made seeing stars a humanly-craved challenge for me, while industrially serving as light, a form of beauty, in darkness, despair.

such a beautiful disaster,
incognito bliss,
that is the blanket of dispair,
the comfort in sadness.

such a destructive beauty,
hidden wretchedness,
the white mask of joy,

i will never forgett the way you smile
you are a star briter than the sun
you are impossible to be forgotten
forever you will have my love

do you understand who you are?

Her eyes glisten with soft words that tell her soul,she grips my chest where my heart once has beaten and now beats again...

As a flower floating on the water
I am a discarded friend, sister and daughter
Thrown out to drown and to disappear
Now the rain falls as violently as my tears