Warm and safe ... inside this cocoon ... the silk of it's fabric surrounds me.
Hiding in the darkness ... of my self induced doom, where no one can find me.

I hold in the pain,all of it.

Take my heart and hold it in your hand
Hold it so tight that it turns to sand
If I look for you, turn away my head
Turn my feelings to black instead of red
Kiss me until I have run out of breath

Fear clouds my mind
Madness is all I hear
Not a single word that's kind
No happy faces here
All I see is pain
Like knives at their sharpest
And sunshine drowned by rain
All I taste is bitter

This is the story I tell.
Why must I live in hell?
Why do I choose this place to dwell?
I can not take the screams and yells.
But everyone creates their own hell.
Love is so blind.

I took my faith and I threw it to the wind
For what is a heart that cannot fly
And what is a love that’s so contained
That the past steals the present
As the memories fade

What will happen to me when the newness wears off,
When I'm not quite so cute or cuddly and soft.
What will happen to me at the end of the day
When you're tired and lonely and I want to play.

Cant...i wont show my weakeness. Gotta keep them happy. Gotta make them think im ok. Keep them on the down low. Gotta pretend. Pretend to be happy. Ya, see the smile? its fake...just for you.

I am a beast
some say the least
I am so cold
so i have been told
I am full of pain
I am true hate
I am none of these
for i am only me
What it is u see
is what your eyes see

isnt it all the same
like every single day
its all repeating history
and its driving me insane

plus the world is so plane
must i be here everyday
i wish i could get away