Torn again..
Never knowing who I am to blame
for this in which I suffer.
Me or her..

Why me?
Why did this have to happen?
Are often questions in which
An answer is always sought.. but rarely given.

I am lost in darkness..
And it is hard to find the ground I must stand.
And thoughts of giving up..
plague my mind worse then nightmares..

So here I am.. wondering a desolate cave, searching for that bright light at the end of the tunnel..

But..
Is the cavern I walk simply in-caved at the end.. and in which the light is lost..?

And am I trapped here..?
Left alone to ponder why I am who I am, and why I sought this life I lead now..?

I wonder in the end..
Was this journey worth it?
Truly..?

Was everything I've given her.. worth the trade?
Will the in-caved entrance of my sorrow..
Ever be cleared, so that
I may for once again in my life
know what it is to be whole?

And to think..
all of this because I took for granted,
Just how evil a good person could be.

And to think..
That even a woman who suffered as you had suffered..
could actually stab you in the back
and shatter you down to the core..

~A poem about the never-ending sorrow of a lovers betrayal~