the tear-splattered page.

my hope is lost. i have forfeited to the suspicious.

i have failed as a parasite. i have failed as a man. i have failed as a pillow; as a lover; a human; an observer; a symbol of purpose.

i am lost in an ocean.
an ocean, raging, seething with anger, self-doubt, sadness, guilt, regret, and pity.
i have lost my posession.

I HAVE NO MUSE.

i have no reason for reason.

i think i'm dying. so much ambience. i lone in a pathetic world of ignorance and stupidity; mopiness; constant negativity. within hours i have become the very thing i defy. i am a hypocrite. an emotional buzzkill. my opportunity has faultered.

goodbye, soul. goodbye, whole.
goodbye, spirit. goodbye, reason.
goodbye, eyes. goodbye, reprise.
goodbye, Muse. goodbye, use. excuse.

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tears and notebooks.

when all hope is lost, pick up a pen. make love to an instrument with your trembling fingers. sound restores the love juices. the thought of thinking. i need help. i need a reason for reason. i need my Muse.

my heart is heavy, i need to turn;
my world is glacial, i need her burn.

formatted letters organized in relation to self-expression. (words)