As I sit here, all alone again
I realize this story has no end
No happy ending will be coming my way
My sadness just goes on day after day
I don't write most of my thoughts down
I wish I did, but I don't know how
Everyday, I write poems in my head
All my thoughts and dreams go unsaid
All these feelings I must keep to myself
Because it's impossible for anyone to help
Everything conflicts, I'm a contradiction
Sometimes I wish my life was just fiction
It would be better if it wasn't real
If I could just act and not really feel
If only you knew what goes through my mind
With every look, every touch, every smile, every time
I feel guilty for not being ashamed
I feel right going the wrong way
The things I feel, I try to tame
But it gets harder every day
I'd give my life to be someone else
I would die to give you myself